I just can't function today. Daniel has just left to pick up the kids. He took them too. I haven't been out of the house.
I'm going to see Dr. G at 5pm. I tried to reach the GP but she wasn't there. I gave up.
It hurts and I don't feel well. No temperature but it might be psychological. I do that. I'm just so upset about hearing the results. I keep telling myself, worst case, I get chemo. THAT'S ALL. Really. I'm stupid. I'm a baby. I'm just not handling it very well...
I just read another BC blog. She has stuff going on on both sides and it's 3.8cm. She's already been told she's headed for chemo. Why am I being like this? Chemo is not really for sure for me in the first place! Mine's only on one side. I still have both boobs (unlikely she'll be so lucky). I am lucky. Why don't I feel like that right now?
How am I going to drive like this?
I did get some stuff done. I had a plate of pasta with olive oil for lunch. Not too much oil. Salt. That's all I wanted, all I could eat.
This is the last step for now. Whatever next, is treatment. The surgery is behind me, as are most of the tests. There will be more but for now, I just want to hide from it all...
I'm going to see Dr. G at 5pm. I tried to reach the GP but she wasn't there. I gave up.
It hurts and I don't feel well. No temperature but it might be psychological. I do that. I'm just so upset about hearing the results. I keep telling myself, worst case, I get chemo. THAT'S ALL. Really. I'm stupid. I'm a baby. I'm just not handling it very well...
I just read another BC blog. She has stuff going on on both sides and it's 3.8cm. She's already been told she's headed for chemo. Why am I being like this? Chemo is not really for sure for me in the first place! Mine's only on one side. I still have both boobs (unlikely she'll be so lucky). I am lucky. Why don't I feel like that right now?
How am I going to drive like this?
I did get some stuff done. I had a plate of pasta with olive oil for lunch. Not too much oil. Salt. That's all I wanted, all I could eat.
This is the last step for now. Whatever next, is treatment. The surgery is behind me, as are most of the tests. There will be more but for now, I just want to hide from it all...
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